Tonight our Women's Bible Study Worship leader was gone. She is at a worship conference in Southern California. Due to this fact I was leading worship from the piano with another lady to help me with vocals. It was interesting. 2 weeks ago I picked my set. I am ahead with the study so I picked the set according to the things the women were studying this week. The Lord had completely guided me in choosing the songs. In fact a couple of them I didn't want to play but the Lord kept saying, "do it!" So I pulled them out and realized how perfectly they fit.
After I spent 2 hours praying, playing, and picking, I started doubting. I began to think that I had picked all old songs and I should have picked something newer. But I knew that God had led in the choosing of the songs and so I was trying hard not to doubt the decision.
2 weeks later, I start practicing and we can't get any sound out of the keyboard. So we decide to switch keyboards, then that one has a horrible hissing sound when we unmute it. I was struggling not to stress but to trust that God had a plan. From there I went and practiced on a different piano while they fixed the problems.
In the end everything went fine, but I was so emotionally exhausted (I think that is why?) that I went in the office and cried afterward. But my vocalist said people worshipped. That's what matters right? At least I know the Lord loved it because He loves the praises of His people.
